USED FOR GOD'S GLORY

We had a pretty nice little snow last night - but as today wore on the temps rose to 32 degrees so the driveway mostly melted - but at 4:30 pm the Lord said "Go outside and shovel"

I went out through the garage - truly there was very little snow....I started near the house, went up by the street, and was back to the middle when a man with a shovel almost identical to my own came riding up the street and into my driveway on a BICYCLE. I smiled at him and said, "wow, I'm pretty much done - there wasn't much to begin with". He started talking and asked if he could clean my gutters (they still have leaves in them because a) I have no help and b) I have no ladder. I said that I was going to try to get my son to help me do it. As we were talking Jesus came up - he has been saved for 8 years - did time in prison - his wife (also saved) recently left him because a man who also had just been released from prison and saved only 8 months, told her that she was to leave her husband and spend time with God.

The Lord told me this was an error - so here's this brother - TODD - and he's alone, no car, no driver's license, out trying to make a living shoveling snow or doing odd jobs - and so I asked him how much he'd charge me to do the gutters and as he was looking at them the Lord said "Tell him you're My minister" - so I did. His eyes lit up and he was so blessed - he said "How about $20?" I said, "The Lord already told me to give you that but you don't have to earn it. Then we started praying for him and his wife - MICHELLE - in the middle of my driveway - his hands were lifted to heaven - and we were praying in the Spirit and I prophesied to Him the Lord's words of love....it was phenomenal. He started shoveling the street - and I went inside and the Lord told me to give him much more than $20 - I came out and told him he didn't have to earn God's provision....and the Lord had me tell him to sit at the Lord's feet and worship (he doesn't have a radio or cds or anything) - but said the Lord gives him songs so the Lord told me to tell him to sing them - and also instead of study study study, to instead sit at the Lord's feet and listen to Him speak -

While he was shoveling he said "You've had a very hard life - lots of trials - but that's why you can hear the Lord so well and help people - your spirit is very very sweet and loving...."

And then he came to me and shook my hand - I gave him the Lord's financial blessing and his mouth dropped open and his eyes grew big (VERY child-like) -

As he was riding away he asked if he could visit me from time to time - I told him only as he felt led from the Lord.

PLEASE PRAY FOR TODD AND MICHELLE - OUR FAMILY IN CHRIST - THAT THE LORD WOULD REUNITE THEM (THEIR SEPARATING WAS DECEPTION AND THE DEVIL) - THEY THEY WOULD HAVE VICTORY OVER REBELLION, SUBSTANCE ABUSE, TOBACCO, THE FLESH - CANCELING ALL ASSIGNMENTS OF THE ENEMY - LIFTING THE VEIL FROM THEIR WORLDLY EYES THAT THEIR SPIRITUAL EYES WILL BE OPEN - ALSO i COME AGAINST THE DEAF AND DUMB SPIRIT, THE SPIRIT OF PERVERSION, THE SPIRIT OF ANTI-CHRIST IN JESUS' NAME FOR YOUR GLORY LORD

The Lord truly loves this brother named Todd -

What a lovely way for the Lord to minister - oh I wait for these moments - wow -

CHRISTMAS IS PAGAN - WHAT ARE YOU DOING???

To love Jesus means to die to self - dying to self is THE ONLY WAY into His presence. No flesh can abide in His glory....

Why oh why won't those who claim to belong to Jesus LISTEN TO THE TRUTH? CHRISTMAS IS NOT BIBLICAL! CHRISTMAS IS PAGAN! What, is it because His name is in the title? ("CHRIST"-mas?) If that were the biggest hindrance, you seriously won't like it that antichrist is also not of Christ! ("christ" is in that title as well)....

LET IT GO! The world has been led astray - pretending that christmas - december 25th is Jesus' birthday or anything remotely ordained of God for celebrating Him. DO YOU NOT CELEBRATE HIM 24/7, 365 days per year?!?! And yes He came in the flesh for mankind's sake, but He ALWAYS WAS. Before the foundations of the world, God the Father, Jesus and Holy Spirit were ALL PRESENT! So technically it's not even His BIRTHDAY - because while He was born of a virgin it was a supernatural experience bringing forth One who ALWAYS WAS!

Every single thing encompassed by this pagan ritual is FALSE! From the trees to decorating to gift-giving - have you ever looked it up? IT HAS NOT BEEN AROUND SINCE THE TIME OF CHRIST! EVERY SINGLE THING the Lord asks of us is already IN HIS WORD - for HIS WORD IS HIM~ therefore, do you not think that a Holy Sovereign Omniscient God would have SAID "CELEBRATE MY BIRTHDAY" if it were meant to be so?

But it is NOT! This is not anti-God - it is PRO-TRUTH!

Each and every time a believer acts according to the ways of the world it is GROSS COMPROMISE! How are you to be trusted to represent Jesus when you are participating in pagan rituals?!?!?! A house divided cannot stand! You cannot do pagan things then do holy things - it just doesn't work that way!

Jesus NEVER ONCE compromised to draw people unto Himself. He hung out with the worst of the worst but He didn't BECOME THEM - no! It was HIS HOLINESS that drew them and CHANGED THEM!

WOE WOE WOE unto those who defend this day! For truly you are doing this for YOU - making up excuses and reasons WHY you don't give it up! The Lord admonishes you "THERE IS A WAY THAT SEEMETH RIGHT UNTO A MAN BUT THE END THEREOF ARE THE WAYS OF DEATH! (PROVERBS 14:12 KJV) -

D - E - A - T - H ! ! !

How are you going to STAND BEFORE HIS JUDGMENT THRONE and explain your deeds? "Well, Lord, it was your birthday - I was celebrating YOU - the decorating, the trees, the gift giving, the parties - it's because of YOU!" and He will reply, "DEPART FROM ME I NEVER KNEW YOU" - - - because if you really and truly KNEW HIM you would know what an offense these pagan celebrations are! (and not just christmas folks, but easter is pagan also!) - - -

"Then I will tell them plainly, 'I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!'" - Matthew 7:23 NIV

"Wherefore come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, and touch not the unclean thing; and I will receive you." 2 Corinthians 6:17

"Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him." 1 John 2:15

"And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God." Romans 12:2

A great sorrow for me are two members of my family - pretending to know Him but doing what they want when they want and ignoring truth. My mother and sister found a way to sneak the holiday in by going to my daughter's house - when leaving, my mother said to my son, "I wonder if your mother would like Christmas if her dad was still alive - he loved Christmas".

WHAT?!?!?!

How can I LOVE SOMETHING THAT IS PAGAN! There is NO EXCUSE for participating in something that is anti-Christ! HOW CAN I POSSIBLY LOVE SOMETHING THAT OFFENDS MY LORD??? Would I love it if my beloved earthly dad were still living? NO! I would tell him what the Lord has me telling all: that Christmas is pagan and does NOT HONOR GOD IN ANY WAY! Which is TRULY ironic that my dad loved Christmas because my dad was born a JEW!

If you love Jesus - do things His way. ALL THINGS - not just something here and something there. And just because churches the world over are also celebrating this pagan holiday it does NOT MAKE IT RIGHT OR HOLY! People, only about 2 percent of all professing Christians are really TRUE CHRISTIANS! The Lord said MANY are called but FEW ARE CHOSEN! And NARROW IS THE WAY - in 25 years I have yet to meet hardly ANY who are truly HIS and walking 100 percent non-compromising, dead-to-self/world/flesh lives!

"For many are called, but few are chosen." Matthew 22:14

"So the last shall be first, and the first last: for many be called, but few chosen." Matthew 20:16

"Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat: Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it." Matthew 7:13-14

ARE YOU ONE OF THE FEW WHO ADHERES TO THE NARROW WAY???

THUS SAITH THE LORD: "THE PRIDE OF YOUR HEART DECEIVES YOU"

Truly I know what it is to be hated - scorned - mocked - gossiped about - - - it does get easier with time, but truly He has had to teach me to guard my heart....

"If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you." John 15:19 "Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life." Proverbs 4:23

MESSAGE FROM THE LORD:

"Beware of My Messenger, and obey her voice, provoke her not; for she will not pardon your transgressions: for my name is in Her." (Exodus 23:21)

PLEASE LOVE HIM ENOUGH TO DO NOTHING TO OFFEND HIM - NOTHING THAT WOULD COMPROMISE YOUR WALK, YOUR PLACE AT HIS FEET....IT IS NOT EVEN ABOUT YOU BUT ALL ABOUT HIM - DO NOT OFFEND HIM, HE WHO PURCHASED YOU WITH A TERRIBLE PRICE - HE WHO FORGIVES AND IS LONG-SUFFERING BUT HE WHO SHALL NOT TOLERATE SIN AND DOUBLE-MINDEDNESS FOR TRULY HIS RIGHTEOUS JUDGMENT SHALL EXPOSE ALL THAT IS FALSE IN YOU AND YOU SHALL BE ASHAMED FOR YOU DID NOT HEED, YOU DID NOT YIELD, YOU DID NOT OBEY. (6:28 pm)

Deut. 12:30-32 Take heed to thyself that thou be not snared by following them, after that they be destroyed from before thee; and that thou enquire not after their gods, saying, How did these nations serve their gods? even so will I do likewise. 31 Thou shalt not do so unto the LORD thy God: for every abomination to the LORD, which he hateth, have they done unto their gods; for even their sons and their daughters they have burnt in the fire to their gods. 32 What thing soever I command you, observe to do it: thou shalt not add thereto, nor diminish from it.

Jeremiah 10:2-4 Thus saith the LORD, Learn not the way of the heathen, and be not dismayed at the signs of heaven; for the heathen are dismayed at them. 3 For the customs of the people are vain: for one cutteth a tree out of the forest, the work of the hands of the workman, with the axe. 4 They deck it with silver and with gold; they fasten it with nails and with hammers, that it move not.

...AND I KNOW HE WATCHES ME

In the midst of a seemingly horrific month of trials, sickness, sorrow and pain, the Lord has never left my side. He has rescued us time and again -

With the broken pipe that SHOULD have flooded my basement to the ceiling, potentially ruining my home completely - the Lord made the break far away and down the street so that NO HARM came to this dwelling or those who come within....

My son's car has been wobbling badly for about two months - we just took it to be looked at yesterday and the tire (NEW!) had a huge balloon-sized bubble AND is split with the wires sticking out - and yet the Lord KEPT HIM SAFE for all the driving he has had to do - many many miles between home and school - it SHOULD HAVE BLOWN - but did not....

We have many stories like this - DAILY STORIES - of His love and goodness - that involve no one else - just Him and us.

It's funny (sad) how millions upon millions can support the big ministries that steal from the flock, robbing God, robbing them - buying mansions and planes and clothes and vacations - - - and yet people send millions upon millions...and then those who are TRULY CALLED suffer and go without -

But PRAISE GOD for His presence - praise HIM for all the ways He has always been there - He has said over and over - YOU CANNOT TRUST MAN AND ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO TRUST MAN - MAN WILL ALWAYS FAIL - BUT YOU CAN TRUST ME.

I know that the Lord is going to start MANIFESTING answers to prayers in that the Body is deaf and does not hear....

Thank You Lord for Your hand upon me and the lives of my loved ones....

I love you always....

THE JOY OF THE LORD.....

Had to go to the pharmacy to pick up my medicines...

PHARMACY LADY: You sure are happy all the time...

ME: It's Jesus....(smiling)

She just sort of stood there staring as I walked away (still smiling)....

I LOVE HIM!!!

"Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior." Habakkuk 3:19 (NIV)

GIVING HIM THE GLORY...

SO MUCH has been happening - the Lord is speaking SO MUCH - His presence is tangible - He is here with me.

DURING the season of Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur (the Days of Awe) - one thing was evident - the Lord kept sending me flowers. In the backyard He took a dead stick of the rose of sharon bush my sister gave me and made it BLOOM with flowers. The single flower in the front yard that He had me post here awhile ago, died - but He BROUGHT IT BACK WHOLLY AND it bloomed on Rosh Hashanah! And this flower in the picture - a plant from Florida - my brother broke off a piece -said "stick it in some dirt and it will grow" - it turns green in the winter but this one all of a sudden started blooming (it bloomed right away when he gave it to me then the bloom died) - the Lord made it bloom over and over again this week (I looked tonight and all the blooms are now gone) - and so - giving Him my love for showering me with flowers during this season that is so special to HIM....I love You, Jesus.......

O HOW I ADORE YOU, MY LOVE.....

My Love, I'll never find the words, my Love
To tell You how I feel my Love
Mere words, could not explain
Precious Love, You held my life within Your hands
Created everything I am
Taught me how to live again

Only You cared when I needed a friend
Believed in me through thick and thin
This song is for You
Filled with gratitude and love

God bless You
You make me feel brand new
For God bless me with You
You make me feel brand new
I sing this song 'cause You
Make me feel brand new

WHO are you singing it to???????

The Lord has had me singing since I was three years old - music was my life - I had over 500 vinyl albums and when I got saved the Lord had me break them all and toss them in the trash. There wasn't a lyric I didn't know - a song I didn't sing. (mostly R&B and love songs). And do you know that the Lord STILL has had me sing some of those love songs to Him - playing them on the piano even He gave me new lyrics to make them just for Him - and this is the first I've seen ANYONE doing the same thing - and it touched me so that I wept....

(SEE VIDEO AT BOTTOM OF THIS BLOG)

Let me be perfectly clear - I do NOT listen to secular music anymore - am not advocating listening to worldly things - the POINT IS that before He found me, I knew these songs. AFTER He found me, all things could be AND WERE/ARE/WILL BE FOR HIM - and by HIS SPIRIT He would have me sing Him every love song....still do.

"Jesus, betcha by golly wow -You're the one that I've been waiting for, forever....and ever will my love for You...keep going strong....keep going strong..."

...and He would sing back to me, "You're once...twice...three times a lady....and I love you...."

The biggest sadness of this video is that they are singing current songs - which means they have not died to that - for the Bible says "Let everything that has breath PRAISE THE LORD" and while they ARE singing the songs unto the Lord, why do they know them to begin with (current ones)?

WHO HAS EARS TO HEAR?

It's one thing to sing songs unto the Lord that you knew BEFORE you met the Lord only after having allowed Holy Spirit to re-write them for His glory - it's another thing to be saved and CONTINUE to be part of all things in the world - listening to secular music as a CHRISTIAN should make you sick - once you meet Him you should be repulsed by all things worldly. DO YOU UNDERSTAND?

(these videos seem to have pop-up ads at the bottom that can't be turned off - disregard - so sad a Christian site would advertise for mental disorders, etc).(Not seeing the ad on this posted version - HALLELUJAH!)

O ISRAEL....

THURSDAY, SEPTEMBER 24TH, 2009: Babysat my granddaughter, Prophetess M..... - seemingly out of the blue she picked up the tambourine shaped like the Star of David with the blue and white streamers - and she put it upon her head and wore it around the living room (prayer room) for a really long time - and then she lay down on top of it in a sort of hug.....(it looked like a position of deep worship) - wow

IN THE MIDST OF IT ALL

There was a drive-by shooting catacorner and across the street from my daughter and granddaughter's house on Sunday. It even made the news. A man was shot - the police also took bullets out of the side of the home. Kira and Mekare were upstairs in their home and heard the gunshots. I PRAISE YOU, LORD, FOR KEEPING THEM SAFE AND HIDDEN UNDER YOUR WING...THANK YOU SO MUCH FATHER....there will never be enough words for me to express my gratitude to You....

HIS BANNER OVER ME IS LOVE

WORTHY TO BE PRAISED

Wonderful, Glorious, Holy and Righteous,
Victorious, Conqueror, Triumphant and Mighty,
Healer, Deliverer, Shield and Defense,
Strong Tower and my Best Friend,
Omnipotent, Omnipresent, Soon-Coming King,
Alpha, Omega, Lord of Everything,
Holy Holy Holy
Is Your Name

YOU FOUND ME....

You found me, my Love, when I was young...there isn't a moment in my life when You were not there....

But you introduced Yourself to me in 1984 - September 15th to be exact....and I have been Yours ever since.

And while I wish I had RECOGNIZED YOU from the very beginning, we have spent a quarter of a century together...

Thank You for finding me...
Thank You for saving me...
Thank You for redeeming me...
Thank You for loving me....

I am Yours forever my Lord....

Your messenger

THE LORD'S WAYS ARE NOT OUR WAYS....

My son just called - 8:26 PM - to tell me that Patrick Swayze has died. Patrick was diagnosed in March of 2008 - and lived longer than doctors expected - but the Lord used me to speak life and keep Patrick ALIVE...long enough for Patrick to film 13 episodes of a television show and feel amazingly great - so much so that all involved with the production said he out-did them in all areas (energy, physically, etc). Long enough for Patrick himself to acknowledge somewhat shocked that "I'm a walking miracle - I don't understand why".

I pray, long enough for Patrick to find Jesus.

The Lord told me on Saturday that this was going to happen. He has pointed Patrick out to me in the past week, showing me Patrick healthy and strong, and spoke lovingly to me that his time was up - There was even a Swayze movie on television I'd never seen or even heard of on Saturday - the Lord told me to turn on the tv then and then told me about the dying of Patrick in the coming days.(the movie was also all about death although in it Patrick did not die) -

I kept checking the news online more often than usual because I knew I'd heard the Lord correctly - and I waited. It was especially strong...and I know that I hear Him.

ALL GLORY HONOR AND PRAISE to the Lord for truly Patrick living this long was GOD'S MIRACLE -

But it is also a testament to the fact that we cannot continually speak death and expect to live - and Patrick spoke death more than he spoke life.

I pray that he received the Lord before his last breath...there is always an opportunity for salvation until our very last breath - I know that the words of the Lord are not in vain - I also know that God would not have had me intercede for this man for all these months for nothing.

Father I thank You for the opportunity to be used in the lives of those of Your children as You see fit....

"My soul is weary of my life; I will leave my complaint upon myself; I will speak in the bitterness of my soul." (Job 10:1)

THE LOST MESSAGE of CONSECRATION

NOTE VIA HIS MESSENGER: The Lord put me in the public eye beginning in 2004 and even that has been on a very limited scale. Reaching only thousands and not millions however His message has always been the same (via this messenger): HE LOVES YOU - COME AWAY WITH HIM - TO DO SO YOU MUST DIE TO SELF - ALLOW HIM TO CRUCIFY YOUR FLESH - IT'S NOT ABOUT YOU - NOTHING IS YOURS, IT'S ALL HIS - BE WHOLLY HIS - LET HIM MOLD YOU AND MAKE YOU ON THE POTTER'S WHEEL - LET HIM CRUSH THE YOU OUT OF YOU ON THE THRESHING FLOOR SO THAT THERE IS NO MORE YOU ONLY HIM THROUGH YOU - NO COMPROMISE - COME OUT FROM THE WORLD AND BE TRULY SEPARATE - IN AND OF YOURSELF YOU CAN DO NOTHING - IT IS HIM THROUGH US....

And this message OFFENDS. Most so-called "Christians" are like "HUH? No one else preaches this; no one else does this, why should I? I love God....but this isn't part of the deal..." "He wants us to have an abundant life - a life of happiness and joy NOW"

Why is it that no one realizes that to have an abundant life - that the "all these things shall be added unto you" parts are MORE OF HIM! HE IS OUR REWARD! OUR TREASURE! That it's not about this world - we are not even FROM this world - but instead our joy - our reward - our treasure - our abundance - is more more more of JESUS!

Ah but the few places He has permitted me to speak His truths as His prophet? The people are offended by the 'death-to-self-it's-not-about-you' message - the people delete "me"; even so-called fellow prophets are offended because the Lord has me admonish them to NEVER SPEAK IN AND OF THEMSELVES FOR THAT IS THEIR FLESH - AS JESUS DID, WE MUST ONLY SPEAK WHEN HE GIVES US UTTERANCE, FOR JESUS ONLY SPOKE THAT WHICH HE HEARD THE FATHER SPEAKING (WHILE DOING ONLY THAT WHICH HE SAW THE FATHER DOING). We do not have the right to deviate - to do things differently, separate, apart from the way HE DID THEM! In fact, there is to be no "I" "me" at all - just HIM HIM HIM!

The utter horror of it all is that they are REJECTING HIM. BUT they believe they are not only His own, but that they HEAR HIM!

In two days it will be my 25th year with Jesus - I will never compromise, but continue to submit unto Him, allowing Him to rule and reign through this vessel, to continue to preach His truths as He gives utterance - it's only about Him, nothing of self. The so-called Body of Christ can reject His truths, reject "me" until His return - it doesn't nullify His truths, His message, which is the same yesterday, today and forever. Jesus never once drew attention to Himself - He came so that He could reveal the Father. As a reward for His job well done - as His reward for being a faithful Servant unto the end - we now submit OURSELVES to death to self so that it is no longer us but Christ through us - we should reveal ONLY JESUS - else we are not really His.

THE FOLLOWING WAS SENT TO ME VIA EMAIL TODAY - THE ABOVE WAS SENT TO CHARISMA MAGAZINE AND LEE GRADY - BUT IT STANDS ON ITS OWN AS HE SPEAKS....:

THE LOST MESSAGE of CONSECRATION
-by Lee Grady.

From reading some old books I've discovered a missing spiritual
dimension. The Lord is inviting us to reclaim it.

A few months ago I went on a special diet. I put aside all newly
published books and limited my reading to a small collection of
Christian classics, mostly devotional works by Andrew Murray,
Watchman Nee, E.M. Bounds, Charles Spurgeon, A.B. Simpson
and Corrie Ten Boom. I knew God had a message for me in those
musty pages.

I had noticed a similar theme in all these books, but it took me a
while to crack the code. These writers from the 19th and 20th
centuries wrote from a spiritual depth that I rarely see in the
church today, and I wanted to know their secret. I slowly began
to figure things out while reading A.B. Simpson's book, A Larger
Christian Life, which he wrote in 1890 when the Holiness
Movement was at its zenith in the United States.

Simpson often preached about Abraham's offering of his son Isaac
on the altar at Mount Moriah, and he called Christians to the place
of self-sacrifice. Mount Moriah, Simpson wrote, "signifies the deeper
spiritual experience into which the fully consecrated person must
come. In this act of obedience, the sanctified self is laid on the
altar just as Isaac was."

I read similar comments about consecration, or full surrender, in
Watchman Nee's The Release of the Spirit, which was first
published in China in 1955. Nee taught us that the path to
spiritual fruitfulness—and to true, intimate knowledge of the
Lord —is the brokenness of the outward man. He explained that
God uses tests and trials in our lives to break our selfish nature
so that Christ's nature can flow through us.

Nee wrote: "No life manifests more beauty than the one who is
broken! Stubbornness and self-love have given way to beauty in
the one who is broken by God."

Perhaps the reason I find so much nourishment in these old words
is that I don't hear much today about the crucified life, suffering,
brokenness or surrender. We rarely talk of altars and we avoid
altar calls. We don't invite people to a deeper spiritual realm
because few even know about such a place; often even our leaders
are too busy using God to boost their egos or to amass personal
wealth.

Today's shallow, "evangelical lite" culture focuses on self, self and
more self. Christian books today are mostly about self-improvement,
not self- sacrifice. We teach people to claim their "best life now"—
and to claim it on their terms. Our message is one of self-
empowerment: God wants to make you happy, so just add a
little bit of God to your life (on your terms of course) and He will
bless you, prosper you and make all your dreams come true.

How strange that message seems when contrasted with the old
hymns Christians used to sing back in the days of holiness
revivals. This song written by Adelaide Pollard in 1907 seems
eerily foreign today:

Have Thine own way, Lord! Have Thine own way!
Thou art the potter, I am the clay;
Mold me and make me after Thy will,
While I am waiting yielded and still.
Have Thine own way, Lord! Have Thine own way!
Hold o'er my being absolute sway!
Fill with Thy Spirit till all shall see
Christ only, always, living in me.

The woman who penned those words was an itinerant Bible teacher
who was discouraged because she didn't have the funds to make
a missionary journey to Africa. She found great comfort when she
put all her plans and desires on the altar and freshly surrendered
to God's will for her life. The song that sprung from her anguish
blessed millions, but today it has lost its popularity because we
simply don't relate.

I believe we must reclaim the forgotten message of consecration.
It is not enough to know Christian doctrines or to paint a nice
Christian veneer on the surface of our lives. God wants our hearts.
We must embrace the cross daily. It is not enough to simply avoid
the sins that our Christian culture says are the "worst"; we must
also allow God's knife to slay the pride, the self-will, the self-
confidence and the self-glorification that our backslidden Christian
culture encourages.

I invite you to reclaim this lost message by praying a "dangerous
prayer" of consecration. Let God assume the throne of your life
while you abdicate. You can pray something like this:

"Lord, You are the potter and I am the clay. Forgive me for my
selfishness. I consecrate my life to You afresh today. I give You
permission to break me, mold me, bend me and make me
according to Your perfect will. This is all the work of Your grace.
I choose to embrace whatever circumstances You must send into
my life in order to rid me of pride and self-will. I choose to live
on Your altar. As I empty myself, I ask You to fill me with Your
Holy Spirit. Amen"

-J. Lee Grady is editor of Charisma.

OMNIPRESENCE

The Lord is doing MANY THINGS here - but I am not permitted to post them - for He has shown me repeatedly that we are not to glory in ANYTHING that has to do with "us" - not even healings, not even blessings - even to give Him glory we still have focused on ourselves and things He has done for US - and then also the devil swoops in because of evil eyes....

I SPEAK ONLY OF A GREAT AND MIGHTY AND POWERFUL AND AWESOME GOD - ONE WHO CARES ABOUT EVERY HAIR ON OUR HEADS - ONE WHO NEVER SLEEPS - ONE WHO NEVER MISSES A SINGLE SOLITARY MOMENT OF US IN HIM - HE IS ALWAYS THERE....

I LOVE YOU MY LORD.

AS SWEET FLOWERS....

The Lord sent me this bright little gift (found it September 2nd, 2009) - it sprouted up amidst flowers that have been there for 2 years - no other flowers like it there or in any of the flower areas in the yard - just this one - and it wasn't there in 2007 or 2008 - just now....a sweet gift of His love.

Song Of Solomon 5:13
His cheeks are as a bed of spices, as sweet flowers: his lips like lilies, dropping sweet smelling myrrh.

DEATH AND LIFE IN THE POWER OF THE TONGUE....

The Lord had me watch bits and pieces of the Labor Day MD telethon. I praise Him for His wisdom, for His guidance as He had me watching at the exact moments that He wanted things revealed, for His truth to be spoken:

-Jerry Lewis himself opened the telethon with SEX JOKES - horrific - 9pm time slot, dozens of "Jerry's Kids" in the audience - thoroughly inappropriate.

-Also early on: Charo did a sexual lap dance

-There were perverse sex jokes throughout

-At one point Jerry said of co-host Jan Karl that she had a giant swazstika painted on her a*! (bottom)

-When accepting 11 million dollars from Venezuela's Citgo rep, he said "I can charm the skin off the belly of a snake" and added "Back in the beginning I told them I'd tell the world they put water in their gasoline if they didn't help me"

6:59 pm - Jerry sang "You'll never walk alone" and could barely get through it - he is old, he is tired, he is ill - the Lord said he was a 'walking dead man' - it will be surprising if he lives until next year's fiasco.

Even in his goodbye tribute to closest friend/sidekick Ed McMahon, Jerry said: "Wherever you are I hope you have your booze"

Final tally: $60,481, 231.00 (FOR DISEASE)
LOCAL (my little corner of the globe): $719,168 (which includes area of highest unemployment in nation)

IMAGINE WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF EVERY SINGLE CHRISTIAN WITH A TELEVISION SET - INSTEAD OF SITTING THERE AND LISTENING/RECEIVING THE WORDS OF DEATH AND DISEASE AND DIAGNOSIS, WOULD INSTEAD STRETCH THEIR HANDS TOWARD THEIR TV SETS AND DECREE LIFE - WHILE IT IS REALLY DIFFICULT TO CIRCUMVENT THE WORDS OF PEOPLES MOUTHS (THEIR DECREES - 22 HOURS OF SICKNESS AND DEATH FROM THEIR TONGUES) - THE LORD IS GREATER THAN ALL EVIL....

IMAGINE SPENDING A LIFETIME WORKING ON A DISEASE WITHOUT CHRIST WITH YOU, WITHOUT HIS PERMISSION, WITHOUT HIS DIRECTION, APART FROM HIS WILL - AND NOT ONLY JERRY AND HIS COHORTS BUT ALSO SADLY THE PEOPLE DYING OF THIS DISEASE WITHOUT CHRIST - THEIR FAMILY MEMBERS ATTRIBUTING THEM TO ANGELS AND HEAVEN JUST BECAUSE THEY SUFFERED.

ALL THINGS DONE APART FROM CHRIST IS THUS DONE IN THE FLESH AND HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE LORD, HIS PURPOSES, HIS GLORY - NOTHING. IF IT BE NOT FOR HIM IT IS AGAINST HIM ...

Proverbs 22:6
6Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it

The Lord translated me in the Spirit to Prince (Prince Rogers Nelson) today - He had me anoint his forehead with oil - It happened via a 'dream' but the translation was real - I could smell the anointing oil and so could Prince - the Lord has given me a burden for this man for quite awhile - he is to follow after Christ Jesus - and I am waiting patiently for the time when he brings him here to hear the words of the Lord toward him....09-05-2009

ANY MINUTE.....

There is a new fictional book available, written by Joyce Meyer. It has nothing to do with the fact that Joyce wrote it (as the Lord does not have me follow after any man/woman, famous Christian or not). Holy Spirit said "READ THIS BOOK" then the Lord opened the door for it to be majorly on sale. The Lord also doesn't typically have me read things when they come out - usually the books He puts into my hands have been written years earlier, just so He can show me His divine leading, purposes in His unique way.

The book synopsis from Joyce's site reads:

CAN SARAH HARPER DO WHAT'S RIGHT...BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE?

Aggressive investment broker Sarah Harper is overachieving at the office but missing the mark with her husband and son when an unexpected tragedy turns their lives upside down. This heartrending story—and its unexpected ending—will lead you to discover that what’s beyond your control is safe in God’s hands.

AND:

Sarah Harper is driven to achieve success no matter what the cost. She wants to do good and not hurt the people she loves—especially her son, Mitchell, her husband, Joe, and her daughter, Kate—but her desire to succeed in her career too often leaves little time for family.

One cold, rainy, autumn morning, all of that changes when Sarah’s car plunges off a bridge and into a river. As rescuers search desperately for her body, Sarah’s spirit is still very much alive. What she discovers on the other side transforms everything about Sarah’s view of life—past, present and future. And the unsuspecting world around her will never be the same again.

(END BOOK DESCRIPTION)

This book is phenomenal. A really quick read, flows amazingly well. During the part where Sarah is "dead" - the Lord displays hugely the same principles that are used in Theophostics - where Holy Spirit takes us back to the events in our past that have made us the way we are today (and determines how we react to things today, having its roots in those past events) - then shows us HIS PLACE in our lives - not only where the trouble began, where the lies were received and believed, but also where He is the solution NOW....powerful work.

There are a few small contradictions but mostly a work of the Lord. Two parts moved me to deep tears and intercession.

As always the Lord's timing is perfect - part of the book dealing with things He has revealed to me recently (such as the angels in our lives, etc)....

It is also a serious message to those who are walking after their own flesh, doing life their own way - and is timely considering my own family member being struck by lightning and God saying "JUST WHAT WILL IT TAKE FOR ME TO GET YOUR ATTENTION???" (as the main character GOES OFF A BRIDGE IN HER CAR and only THEN God being able to to get HERS (attention))...

The Lord ISN'T PLAYING AROUND IN THIS HOUR - and if there is a "yes" toward Him in your heart that is deep, then no matter WHAT your OUTSIDES look like (actions, words, deeds, etc) - He will do WHATEVER IT TAKES to get your attention, to give you the opportunity to match your outsides with your insides in obedience, submission, surrender....to fully receive Him and walk wholly in His divine purpose for your life for His glory!

Yet another message of the book is walking in love - the part NOT SPOKEN BY THE BOOK is to be led by His Spirit and look for God-ordained opportunities to be given the chance to make someone else happy (lest it be works of YOUR FLESH) but nonetheless to be a blessing -to display Christ to the world - "any minute you might get your chance to be a giver" (for His glory)(09-01-2009 @ 6:31 PM)

Ask Him if and when He might permit you to read this book. He may not...but then again, He may! Let Him direct your life in ALL AREAS - don't just do a thing in and of yourself. This is encouragement to simply ASK, letting you know that Holy Spirit DID breathe this work.

HOW RICH YOU ARE!

There is a little book that the Lord placed in my hands many years ago - He does not have me read it regularly, but every once in awhile He will point it out to me and have me read something for that day. The book is title "God Calling" and is a collection of God's words for 365 days a year. It is NOT a typical devotional written by men trying to interpret God's words, or speaking in generalities - no, these are the Lord's actual words as given to two faithful women believers (seemingly decades ago, as some of the ways they wrote His words are in older english; cannot find a copyright date as the book is particularly hard to find).

The book is arranged in small passages by days of the year and again is NOTHING like typical devotionals and really isn't such...hard to explain unless you've read it. Sort of like "Exhortations From The Father" put into book form during one year in these beloved womens' lives. (they refer to themselves merely as the "two listeners").

The Lord had me pull it out tonight - and told me to post the word that He spoke to the women on this same day all those years ago (September 1st, 2009) (I especially adore that He uses the term "unfailing" as a) that is THIS MINISTRY and b) the word is only used ONE TIME in the entire Bible):

HOW RICH YOU ARE September 1

"I will never leave thee nor forsake thee." (Heb. xiii.5.)

"My children, that word is unfailingly true. Down the centuries thousands have proved My constancy, My untiringness, My unfailing Love. "Never leave." "Never forsake". Not just a presence is meant by this, but....

"My Love will never leave you. My Understanding will never leave you. My Strength will never leave you. Think of all that I AM:

Love - then for ever you are sure of Love.
Strength - then for ever, in every difficulty and danger, you are sure of strength.
Patience - then always there is One who can never tire.
Understanding - then always you will be understood.

"Can you fear the future when it holds so much for you? Beloved, "set your affections on things above" (the higher, spiritual things), "and not on things on the earth" (the lower, temporal things), and you will see how rich you are."

FORGETTING THOSE THINGS WHICH ARE BEHIND YOU....

Wow - two days ago (Sunday, August 30th, 2009) the Lord had me watch a two-part movie - the DVD box was UNOPENED and I have no idea where it came from - it was over three hours long - what was it?: "The Story Of David: From Shepherd to King of Israel" - wow....

The following was posted TODAY (09-01-2009):

WORD OF THE LORD FOR SEPTEMBER 1st, 2009:
THE TRUMPET by Bill Burns

May the sons of Jesse arise to their thrones and be seated upon the thrones of David in heavenly places. These are the thrones of the joint heirs of Christ Jesus to which you have been called in this time and in this season. Therefore, I say unto you, forgetting those things that are behind you, press, run to the mark of the high calling that is before you that your destiny may be fulfilled with purpose; so that you are no longer withheld; so that you are no longer restricted; so that you no longer are living under the darkness of that which satan has brought into your lives. For you will now begin to live as a child of light and that light will produce life, not only in your lives but in the lives of those around you. So I say today, forget those things that are behind you; put them firmly behind you, then turn and face the glory of God. (END WORD)

TO LIVE AS/BE CHOSEN AS HIS FORERUNNERS: God doing things in your life, revealing things to you BEFORE He reveals them to the world

IN THE WORD OF GOD: A soldier who ran ahead of the main body of troops as a scout; often John the Baptist is so regarded, as is implied in Matt. 11: 10, in that he preceded Jesus and prepared his way. But in Hebrews 6: 20 Jesus is Himself called a forerunner, in that He is a kind of advance guard: He is already seated in heaven and His presence there guarantees the subsequent entry of all who belong to Him.

WHAT DO YOU SEE (with the eyes of His Spirit)?

But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered...Luke 12:7a

My earthly mother is 79 years old. She works as a home health aid and takes care of the elderly. Her one client is a woman of God who is in her 90's.

The other day my mom was at work at the woman's house. She was trying to leave and go home when this little pesky neighborhood dog started chasing her vehicle (minivan). This little dog is considered a nuisance by all the neighbors as it is always doing this (barking and chasing people's vehicles).

Well, this day, the little dog not only barked and chased, he also pounced at my mom's van and got under her rear wheel. The little dog went flying and my mom was horrified.

The owners came out and picked it up - my mom said its leg was just hanging. My mom went home and cried - it really hurt her to have hit the little dog.

The next day: she went to work as usual - the neighbors (themselves or else a friend of theirs) came to the house my mom was working in and told her not to worry - that the dog is completely healed and running around - that there was absolutely nothing wrong with the dog's leg whatsoever!

First ALL GLORY HONOR AND PRAISE BE UNTO JESUS FOR HIS AWESOME POWER AND MIGHT AND LOVE

I pray that my mom will remember the Lord's caring heart - that He cared about her hurt enough to fix the dog - demonstrating not only His power but His love for a 79 year old who cried about a puppy.

REAR GUARD

THIS POST IS NOT IN CHRONOLOGICAL ORDER - BUT THE LORD WANTED ME TO POST IT ASAP:

The picture to the left was taken by my son on his cell phone on July 27th, 2009:

IN THIS PICTURE: there is a rainbow on a sunny day and an angel standing upon the rainbow - within the 'body' of the angel you can see a huge blue cross - my son was driving down to his university to move his belongings and this appeared in the sky above the road

MORE ANGEL MANIFESTATIONS:

Once again, my son was leaving our home to drive over 199 miles to his university - this time for the new Fall school semester begining in two weeks. He has rented a house and was headed down to set up the house and get ready for his junior year to begin.

We packed up his car for the final time - it was Thursday, August 20th, 2009 - 4:40 A.M. I was giving him a hug goodbye - and then as I walked around his car praying as he went inside the house for one last 'check' for anything he might have left behind, the Lord showed me ANGEL WINGS on his car trunk! It was a muggy early morning and there was a perfect full shape on his truck of a pair of angel wings - as his 'rear guard' -

I praise God for these confirmations of His presence in my son's life - directing His steps

"He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler." Psalm 91:4

THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS A 'SMALL THING'....

My sister called and said there was a huge 'yard sale' at a church near her house - the biggest sale she'd ever seen. Nothing had price tags on it - all they asked was a donation (as people felt 'led'). My sister had gone to the sale early in the morning; she and I returned around 2:00 PM.

I was in the children's clothing section - she was in the next aisle and stooped down to look into a box of stuffed animals. She called to me and said, "What does Mekare like? Anything in particular?" The Lord had me reply, "Well, there's Barney but she has two of those..." and the Holy Spirit then had me say "She really loves those bouncing Tigger dolls...." (which was TRULY THE LORD FILLING MY MOUTH BECAUSE I THINK MY DAUGHTER MENTIONED ONE TIME MANY MANY MONTHS AGO THAT MEKARE LIKED THOSE TIGGERS...IN AND OF MYSELF I CERTAINLY DID NOT RECALL THIS NOR WAS A TIGGER ANYWHERE IN MY THOUGHTS - and as always HE FILLS MY MOUTH AT ALL TIMES).

My sister looked back down (no one was near her, nothing had altered what she had just looked at (the box)) - and SITTING ON TOP OF THE BOX OF STUFFED ANIMALS WAS A BRAND NEW - NEVER USED - BATTERY-OPERATED BOUNCING TIGGER.

IT HAD A GOLD BOW TIED AROUND ITS NECK.

IT WASN'T THERE WHEN SHE LOOKED IN THAT BOX THE FIRST TIME - IT WAS ONLY THERE AFTER THE LORD HAD ME SPEAK THAT THAT'S WHAT THE BABY LIKES...!!!

I just laughed and laughed - the Lord is SO AWESOME - He does these things every single time I'm with my sister - having me just speak a thing and WHAMMO - IMMEDIATELY - He brings whatever He has me speak to pass...

I love Him in me....
I love how He uses me to woo those He loves...

5:38 PM
08-22-2009

PRECISELY

Today at 7:31pm

My daughter's car broke down about 20 miles away earlier today - after driving her around for that, tonight she called again and asked if I could drive her to pick up something. I was actually asleep and said I'd get back with her. Well, couldn't go back to sleep and the Lord had me get up, get dressed and go get them. (I didn't know they went anywhere, He just told me to go get them).

Went outside and it was raining hard....drove down my street and it was torrential rain. Followed the Lord's direction - exactly down to the minute...

He FINALLY had me turn left into a local pharmacy/store - and there they were - Kira, Mekare and Nathan - they had walked out of the store's front door (on the other side of the building, come around the front to walk down the store's sidewalk from the front door, and were exactly at the end of that sidewalk at the parking lot as I drove up - He placed me there exactly as it if had been pre-arranged and I was the ride they had ordered or sent for -

Only the LORD had sent for me because only He knew exactly where they were and the amount of time it would take for me (since their original call) to try to fall back to sleep, get up, accept another incoming phone call from my mom, go out, stop somewhere, stop another somewhere, to then pull up at the EXACT MOMENT THAT THEY HAD COME OUTSIDE TO NEED A RIDE (NOT KNOWING A RIDE WAS COMING).

wow - I cannot express all the little things He had me do to get to that moment where

I'd be there exactly.....

PRECISELY - - -

He's amazing....


7:31 PM
08-21-2009

NOT ALLOWED

And we had yet another storm Wednesday evening (08-19-2009) - the sky became dark...the winds roared...the house seriously surrounded by lightning...the thunder rolled.... my granddaughter here with me and we were NOT AFRAID - for the Lord had me command the storm to GO AROUND and NOT PASS THROUGH. My mother called and said, "The tornado sirens are going off - are you praying?"

And it DID NOT MANIFEST - COULD NOT MANIFEST - for the Lord said "IT SHALL NOT COME NIGH THEE..."

The local television station caught the evil trying to manifest - AMAZING footage on videotape - the picture capture (above) is not so great but you'll see what came but was not permitted (there was rotation and tendrals of tornado TRYING to extend down to the ground - but it was NOT PERMITTED.

We give Jesus all glory, honor and praise.

PEACE, BE STILL

ON MONDAY: My son and I had just sat down in the living room to eat a special lunch the Lord had me cook for him - and the thunder was rolling (lately it doesn't just boom once - it booms and rolls and rolls, lingering for minutes at a time) and lightning struck nearby - I pulled up the mini-blinds so we could watch - and after awhile our tree long down-hanging branches started to churn and spin - and the Lord had me talking to my son while putting my hand to the window glass and proclaiming "PEACE BE STILL" - and it calmed. AT THE SAME TIME, my brother was down the street and around the corner, sitting in his humongous Chevy suburban in the Panera parking lot, unable to see to drive and said the winds were so intense his vehicle was rocking (it's at least a half-ton vehicle)....

After the storm left and quieted...I went out as per the Lord - at the end of our street and to the left, a huge tree was down, laying across the roadway. In OUR YARD, however, was laying a small branch. The comparison was so amazing - to God be the glory! HAHA - and there were huge chunks of trees all over on our side of town (but as I drove further to the east toward the post office, NO BRANCHES/TREES DOWN ANYWHERE.

So - while the devil focused on MY NEIGHBORHOOD - the power of God once again kept us safe, evidenced by the destruction on all sides but NOT HERE - HALLELUJAH

I did take a picture of the branch and the tree but had to use a disposable box camera - my son and I went across town on purpose to a store that actually still develops these cameras in an hour while you shop and their FILM CENTER WAS ACTUALLY CLOSED - a sign was up and it said "Sorry for the inconvenience" - any other day of the week they are OPEN - something happened (the employee was sick or something) - but it was the DEVIL who did not want the Lord to get the glory from the photographic evidence.

Attached is a photo my son took for me from his car window, his phone camera doesn't have zoom - so it's a very poor shot of the size of the tree that fell just down the block (and he didn't take any pics of the small branch felled in our yard - I will have to put up those photos at a later time but will not wait any longer to give God the glory for protecting us once again....

really hard to see - this is at the end of our street and just to the left - the storm was a straight line to US but the Lord did not allow it to touch us!

So I surrender...for I am Yours O God
Yes I surrender to Your love...

I SURRENDER...only as You help me - for without You I can do nothing

Not afraid to admit or ashamed to admit I've been struggling - we are near the end of all things - Jesus is returning soon - and those who love Him are being "finalized" - prepared to be able to stand, to reflect Him fully. Dying to self hurts. The final moments in the potters kiln are the most intense. After 24 years I'm STILL amazed at how much "self" can still be found remaining. And then I get angry and then sad for letting Him down.

When the going gets rough...the rough get going. NOT - sorry - haha. The Lord is healing my broken-heartedness and now there is this silly giddyness. FREEDOM TO LAUGH - thank You, Lord.

Saturday was such a phenomenal day - after such intense persecution (which NO ONE KNOWS OF) - and not really giving up but really pressed upon the threshing floor - and He says "Worship Me, messenger...." And I sing my heart of love unto Him, pouring my love upon Him. And yet totally in despair in the early morning hours.....

BUT THEN!

He comes softly as He always does and blows His breath of love upon me

And the day is CHANGED! He is everywhere - embracing me, leading me.

He tells me to pull a large stack of books off the main bookshelf - and I go to 'our place' and listen as He tells me even which order to start opening the books and to where within the book - most of them I didn't even know I had, and, oh, were they dusty!

The first book: He opened to a place that said in bold letters "NOT PUNISHMENT". It read, "I have and will continue to guide your efforts for My glory. You are not being punished for past sins".

(Because early one morning a few days ago as I went out around 3 A.M. into the back yard in my nightgown looking for God's handiwork via shooting meteors and saw none...I actually whispered, "Are you mad at me? What have I done? I know I have failed You" and sobbed).

But You are ALWAYS at the forefront of my heart and thoughts, even in moments of despair - and my heart cries CHANGE ME INTO YOUR LIKENESS - CONTINUE TO CRUSH THE "ME" out of "me".

The second book He had me open a) confirmed something He had me minister only a few hours earlier on Facebook (this being yet another book I have not been called to open in YEARS).... and b) it said among other things (this part was for me): "Only when one is willing to die to everything in his life, including his RIGHTS...."

Ah...rights. We have none. And just when you think, "But Lord I know it's not about me - I know it's about You - and I know I have no rights..." He will allow that certain something to happen that makes your insides SCREAM at the indignity of how you are being treated by specific someones who live their lives in sin and lust and sin and flesh - and how they - THEY - are allowed to defecate on your lawn (yes literally) and drive on your grass and on and on (have been tormented by my neighbors for almost two years and He has never allowed me to speak of it) - - - - at my darkest deepest hour of being truly crushed on all sides - by children and family and 'brethren' and situations and tragedies and sorrow and deformity - ALL SIDES - the NEIGHBORS go from horrible to unbelievably horrible and He uses their selfishness and abusiveness as a last straw. "How dare they! They've done...this...that...the other...." puh puh puh - sputter sputter sputter.

And the Lord gently says "I thought you said you knew it wasn't about you - that you have no rights?"

Ahhhhhh.....crush me Lord. I have no rights. I must even be willing to suffer injustice at the hands of the sinful.

Talk about humbling.

And He won't permit me to complain or go to them, even gently.
He says "I will vindicate. YOU walk in My love."

Book three that He had me pull off the shelf - I have never ever seen before - do not even know where it came from. He had me open the book exactly to a page that had the exact words He spoke through me to mom the night before - EXACTLY. And it also had a message for me: "In this world you will have trouble" (John 16:33 NIV).

By book three I'm smiling and feeling all fuzzy and undone - because the Lord used three books I never read, opened them to exact pages (no fanning through, no searching, EXACT) to confirm all that He has spoken through me and all that He is to me - re-affirming yet again for the millionth time (PRAISE YOU LORD - I never get tired of You showing me You in my life) - that He orchestrates/directs my steps 100 percent accurately 100 percent of the time.

I am His.
He's got me.
Oh how I love You Lord.

And yet another book - number 4. Never saw this one before either. IT SAYS:

"We cannot be seated in heavenly places until we go through the cross and are crucified with Him".

Oh, how grateful I am -having been permitted to experience Heaven for so many years now - that He has taught me death to self early on - and that He continues to crush me - even if I sometimes go through kicking and screaming - to that place where it is no longer me - only Him.

Oh - how I love You, my Lord.

His light in the darkness

I'm hoping it will be easy to figure this out - all glory honor and praise be unto YOU, Lord Jesus - my love, my life, my heartbeat - King of Kings - Lord of Lords