But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered...Luke 12:7a

My earthly mother is 79 years old. She works as a home health aid and takes care of the elderly. Her one client is a woman of God who is in her 90's.

The other day my mom was at work at the woman's house. She was trying to leave and go home when this little pesky neighborhood dog started chasing her vehicle (minivan). This little dog is considered a nuisance by all the neighbors as it is always doing this (barking and chasing people's vehicles).

Well, this day, the little dog not only barked and chased, he also pounced at my mom's van and got under her rear wheel. The little dog went flying and my mom was horrified.

The owners came out and picked it up - my mom said its leg was just hanging. My mom went home and cried - it really hurt her to have hit the little dog.

The next day: she went to work as usual - the neighbors (themselves or else a friend of theirs) came to the house my mom was working in and told her not to worry - that the dog is completely healed and running around - that there was absolutely nothing wrong with the dog's leg whatsoever!

First ALL GLORY HONOR AND PRAISE BE UNTO JESUS FOR HIS AWESOME POWER AND MIGHT AND LOVE

I pray that my mom will remember the Lord's caring heart - that He cared about her hurt enough to fix the dog - demonstrating not only His power but His love for a 79 year old who cried about a puppy.

REAR GUARD

THIS POST IS NOT IN CHRONOLOGICAL ORDER - BUT THE LORD WANTED ME TO POST IT ASAP:

The picture to the left was taken by my son on his cell phone on July 27th, 2009:

IN THIS PICTURE: there is a rainbow on a sunny day and an angel standing upon the rainbow - within the 'body' of the angel you can see a huge blue cross - my son was driving down to his university to move his belongings and this appeared in the sky above the road

MORE ANGEL MANIFESTATIONS:

Once again, my son was leaving our home to drive over 199 miles to his university - this time for the new Fall school semester begining in two weeks. He has rented a house and was headed down to set up the house and get ready for his junior year to begin.

We packed up his car for the final time - it was Thursday, August 20th, 2009 - 4:40 A.M. I was giving him a hug goodbye - and then as I walked around his car praying as he went inside the house for one last 'check' for anything he might have left behind, the Lord showed me ANGEL WINGS on his car trunk! It was a muggy early morning and there was a perfect full shape on his truck of a pair of angel wings - as his 'rear guard' -

I praise God for these confirmations of His presence in my son's life - directing His steps

"He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler." Psalm 91:4

THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS A 'SMALL THING'....

My sister called and said there was a huge 'yard sale' at a church near her house - the biggest sale she'd ever seen. Nothing had price tags on it - all they asked was a donation (as people felt 'led'). My sister had gone to the sale early in the morning; she and I returned around 2:00 PM.

I was in the children's clothing section - she was in the next aisle and stooped down to look into a box of stuffed animals. She called to me and said, "What does Mekare like? Anything in particular?" The Lord had me reply, "Well, there's Barney but she has two of those..." and the Holy Spirit then had me say "She really loves those bouncing Tigger dolls...." (which was TRULY THE LORD FILLING MY MOUTH BECAUSE I THINK MY DAUGHTER MENTIONED ONE TIME MANY MANY MONTHS AGO THAT MEKARE LIKED THOSE TIGGERS...IN AND OF MYSELF I CERTAINLY DID NOT RECALL THIS NOR WAS A TIGGER ANYWHERE IN MY THOUGHTS - and as always HE FILLS MY MOUTH AT ALL TIMES).

My sister looked back down (no one was near her, nothing had altered what she had just looked at (the box)) - and SITTING ON TOP OF THE BOX OF STUFFED ANIMALS WAS A BRAND NEW - NEVER USED - BATTERY-OPERATED BOUNCING TIGGER.

IT HAD A GOLD BOW TIED AROUND ITS NECK.

IT WASN'T THERE WHEN SHE LOOKED IN THAT BOX THE FIRST TIME - IT WAS ONLY THERE AFTER THE LORD HAD ME SPEAK THAT THAT'S WHAT THE BABY LIKES...!!!

I just laughed and laughed - the Lord is SO AWESOME - He does these things every single time I'm with my sister - having me just speak a thing and WHAMMO - IMMEDIATELY - He brings whatever He has me speak to pass...

I love Him in me....
I love how He uses me to woo those He loves...

5:38 PM
08-22-2009

PRECISELY

Today at 7:31pm

My daughter's car broke down about 20 miles away earlier today - after driving her around for that, tonight she called again and asked if I could drive her to pick up something. I was actually asleep and said I'd get back with her. Well, couldn't go back to sleep and the Lord had me get up, get dressed and go get them. (I didn't know they went anywhere, He just told me to go get them).

Went outside and it was raining hard....drove down my street and it was torrential rain. Followed the Lord's direction - exactly down to the minute...

He FINALLY had me turn left into a local pharmacy/store - and there they were - Kira, Mekare and Nathan - they had walked out of the store's front door (on the other side of the building, come around the front to walk down the store's sidewalk from the front door, and were exactly at the end of that sidewalk at the parking lot as I drove up - He placed me there exactly as it if had been pre-arranged and I was the ride they had ordered or sent for -

Only the LORD had sent for me because only He knew exactly where they were and the amount of time it would take for me (since their original call) to try to fall back to sleep, get up, accept another incoming phone call from my mom, go out, stop somewhere, stop another somewhere, to then pull up at the EXACT MOMENT THAT THEY HAD COME OUTSIDE TO NEED A RIDE (NOT KNOWING A RIDE WAS COMING).

wow - I cannot express all the little things He had me do to get to that moment where

I'd be there exactly.....

PRECISELY - - -

He's amazing....


7:31 PM
08-21-2009

NOT ALLOWED

And we had yet another storm Wednesday evening (08-19-2009) - the sky became dark...the winds roared...the house seriously surrounded by lightning...the thunder rolled.... my granddaughter here with me and we were NOT AFRAID - for the Lord had me command the storm to GO AROUND and NOT PASS THROUGH. My mother called and said, "The tornado sirens are going off - are you praying?"

And it DID NOT MANIFEST - COULD NOT MANIFEST - for the Lord said "IT SHALL NOT COME NIGH THEE..."

The local television station caught the evil trying to manifest - AMAZING footage on videotape - the picture capture (above) is not so great but you'll see what came but was not permitted (there was rotation and tendrals of tornado TRYING to extend down to the ground - but it was NOT PERMITTED.

We give Jesus all glory, honor and praise.

PEACE, BE STILL

ON MONDAY: My son and I had just sat down in the living room to eat a special lunch the Lord had me cook for him - and the thunder was rolling (lately it doesn't just boom once - it booms and rolls and rolls, lingering for minutes at a time) and lightning struck nearby - I pulled up the mini-blinds so we could watch - and after awhile our tree long down-hanging branches started to churn and spin - and the Lord had me talking to my son while putting my hand to the window glass and proclaiming "PEACE BE STILL" - and it calmed. AT THE SAME TIME, my brother was down the street and around the corner, sitting in his humongous Chevy suburban in the Panera parking lot, unable to see to drive and said the winds were so intense his vehicle was rocking (it's at least a half-ton vehicle)....

After the storm left and quieted...I went out as per the Lord - at the end of our street and to the left, a huge tree was down, laying across the roadway. In OUR YARD, however, was laying a small branch. The comparison was so amazing - to God be the glory! HAHA - and there were huge chunks of trees all over on our side of town (but as I drove further to the east toward the post office, NO BRANCHES/TREES DOWN ANYWHERE.

So - while the devil focused on MY NEIGHBORHOOD - the power of God once again kept us safe, evidenced by the destruction on all sides but NOT HERE - HALLELUJAH

I did take a picture of the branch and the tree but had to use a disposable box camera - my son and I went across town on purpose to a store that actually still develops these cameras in an hour while you shop and their FILM CENTER WAS ACTUALLY CLOSED - a sign was up and it said "Sorry for the inconvenience" - any other day of the week they are OPEN - something happened (the employee was sick or something) - but it was the DEVIL who did not want the Lord to get the glory from the photographic evidence.

Attached is a photo my son took for me from his car window, his phone camera doesn't have zoom - so it's a very poor shot of the size of the tree that fell just down the block (and he didn't take any pics of the small branch felled in our yard - I will have to put up those photos at a later time but will not wait any longer to give God the glory for protecting us once again....

really hard to see - this is at the end of our street and just to the left - the storm was a straight line to US but the Lord did not allow it to touch us!

So I surrender...for I am Yours O God
Yes I surrender to Your love...

I SURRENDER...only as You help me - for without You I can do nothing

Not afraid to admit or ashamed to admit I've been struggling - we are near the end of all things - Jesus is returning soon - and those who love Him are being "finalized" - prepared to be able to stand, to reflect Him fully. Dying to self hurts. The final moments in the potters kiln are the most intense. After 24 years I'm STILL amazed at how much "self" can still be found remaining. And then I get angry and then sad for letting Him down.

When the going gets rough...the rough get going. NOT - sorry - haha. The Lord is healing my broken-heartedness and now there is this silly giddyness. FREEDOM TO LAUGH - thank You, Lord.

Saturday was such a phenomenal day - after such intense persecution (which NO ONE KNOWS OF) - and not really giving up but really pressed upon the threshing floor - and He says "Worship Me, messenger...." And I sing my heart of love unto Him, pouring my love upon Him. And yet totally in despair in the early morning hours.....

BUT THEN!

He comes softly as He always does and blows His breath of love upon me

And the day is CHANGED! He is everywhere - embracing me, leading me.

He tells me to pull a large stack of books off the main bookshelf - and I go to 'our place' and listen as He tells me even which order to start opening the books and to where within the book - most of them I didn't even know I had, and, oh, were they dusty!

The first book: He opened to a place that said in bold letters "NOT PUNISHMENT". It read, "I have and will continue to guide your efforts for My glory. You are not being punished for past sins".

(Because early one morning a few days ago as I went out around 3 A.M. into the back yard in my nightgown looking for God's handiwork via shooting meteors and saw none...I actually whispered, "Are you mad at me? What have I done? I know I have failed You" and sobbed).

But You are ALWAYS at the forefront of my heart and thoughts, even in moments of despair - and my heart cries CHANGE ME INTO YOUR LIKENESS - CONTINUE TO CRUSH THE "ME" out of "me".

The second book He had me open a) confirmed something He had me minister only a few hours earlier on Facebook (this being yet another book I have not been called to open in YEARS).... and b) it said among other things (this part was for me): "Only when one is willing to die to everything in his life, including his RIGHTS...."

Ah...rights. We have none. And just when you think, "But Lord I know it's not about me - I know it's about You - and I know I have no rights..." He will allow that certain something to happen that makes your insides SCREAM at the indignity of how you are being treated by specific someones who live their lives in sin and lust and sin and flesh - and how they - THEY - are allowed to defecate on your lawn (yes literally) and drive on your grass and on and on (have been tormented by my neighbors for almost two years and He has never allowed me to speak of it) - - - - at my darkest deepest hour of being truly crushed on all sides - by children and family and 'brethren' and situations and tragedies and sorrow and deformity - ALL SIDES - the NEIGHBORS go from horrible to unbelievably horrible and He uses their selfishness and abusiveness as a last straw. "How dare they! They've done...this...that...the other...." puh puh puh - sputter sputter sputter.

And the Lord gently says "I thought you said you knew it wasn't about you - that you have no rights?"

Ahhhhhh.....crush me Lord. I have no rights. I must even be willing to suffer injustice at the hands of the sinful.

Talk about humbling.

And He won't permit me to complain or go to them, even gently.
He says "I will vindicate. YOU walk in My love."

Book three that He had me pull off the shelf - I have never ever seen before - do not even know where it came from. He had me open the book exactly to a page that had the exact words He spoke through me to mom the night before - EXACTLY. And it also had a message for me: "In this world you will have trouble" (John 16:33 NIV).

By book three I'm smiling and feeling all fuzzy and undone - because the Lord used three books I never read, opened them to exact pages (no fanning through, no searching, EXACT) to confirm all that He has spoken through me and all that He is to me - re-affirming yet again for the millionth time (PRAISE YOU LORD - I never get tired of You showing me You in my life) - that He orchestrates/directs my steps 100 percent accurately 100 percent of the time.

I am His.
He's got me.
Oh how I love You Lord.

And yet another book - number 4. Never saw this one before either. IT SAYS:

"We cannot be seated in heavenly places until we go through the cross and are crucified with Him".

Oh, how grateful I am -having been permitted to experience Heaven for so many years now - that He has taught me death to self early on - and that He continues to crush me - even if I sometimes go through kicking and screaming - to that place where it is no longer me - only Him.

Oh - how I love You, my Lord.

His light in the darkness

I'm hoping it will be easy to figure this out - all glory honor and praise be unto YOU, Lord Jesus - my love, my life, my heartbeat - King of Kings - Lord of Lords